A Costly Mistake?!

I had given up my pride
To make someone smile
I never dreamt that that someone
Doubted my motives all the while

There were times my family questioned
The investment of my time
I put their fears at rest and told them
That they worrying without reason or rhyme

I shed my inhibitions
To enjoy friendship as that person saw it
I never dreamt that that person thought
I was losing my individuality and wit

I happily gave up some dreams
To share a view with that person
To me that person was perhaps
The most special one under the sun.

The most lovely feeling comes
When you feel you are important in someone's heart
Without actually letting my friend know everything
With him/her , I have nearly perfected this art.

But today when the time has come
To make decisions new
I suddenly realize that
My friends are very few...

I know that my friend
Has a feeling in his/her mind
That to my family and to my friends
Today I am being selfishly blind!!!

I know my friend since years
I can read his/her every thought
My friend's unspoken attitude
Is hurting me a lot

No one has a right to judge
The support to my family that I lend
No one has a right to question
A single penny that I spend...

I was free with my friend
But perhaps I crossed the line
My life might be with my friends
But my family's decisions are only mine.

Friendship is a journey too beautiful
For such feelings to mar the way
Friendships are most intact
When such feelings are kept at bay...

So I hope that i understand
That this is just a passing phase
A day will come when my friend will realize
That he/she was wrong abt my ways...